Dear Lady

Lady Persephone,

I asked you last night to help me continue on. And you were there for me. You had to be, I felt you. You completely changed my outlook on things, completely made me feel better.

I know maybe I’ll never see you in the way that I would like to, but just knowing that you care, that I matter to you, it’s enough, I think.

I was crying and seriously contemplating my marriage, and asked for your help, and you gave it. Thank you. I won’t forget. You are, past and future, one who I admire and respect. Thank you.

Spirit Animals

For protection, my spirit animal is the snow leopard.

For guidance, my spirit animal is the wolf.

I wonder what my other totems will be?

Ostara 2010

So today was Ostara, which is the Pagan rebirth type dealio. Google it.

Anywhoo, Ana and I met up with SPO at Xarah’s house. Hung out and helped set up and then I went to the circle with the group, and she sat outside the circle.

It was a pretty good circle. David Durett wrote a song about the various deities to be honored, we had a “shedding of the skin” cauldron burning negative traits, we had a meditation, and then teh longest part of the circle, we said something good about each person. A couple of people cried. It was very nice.

Too tired to really type write now. Not that I could expand much anyways. Today was something that had to be felt, not explained.

Guided Animal Meditation

So Kiki of kiki’s cauldron totally did this awesome workshop with some members of the SPO last Friday. One of the things we did was a guided meditation to meet our spirit animal.

Well, we were lead through this cave, and when I came out of the cave, I immediately said “There’s a wolf.” And the wolf hid to my right and stayed behind me. Then I kept following a path. It was only when I stepped off the path and stood near it, the wolf came up to my right and in front of me. And it just layed or sat beside and stared at me.

So…A wolf is with me.

My Leading Goddess

Goddess Style Demeter – Maternal Woman

Motherhood #1, work #2
Nurturer, caretaker and often healer
Loving and soft-hearted
Generous and giving
People-pleaser, delights in serving others
She can’t say no if someone needs her attention or help
“Are you hungry?” is her favorite phrase
Feels fulfilled solely by virtue of her relationships with children
Sacrifices self for others
Finds pleasure in gardens
Has a tendency to mother men
An aura of Mother Earth envelopes her
Dependable and solid
Resolute and determined
Food is an essential way for her to express herself
Loyal, principled, altruistic
Forgiving and understanding
May seem stubborn when family is involved
If she has children, the relationship with her daughter is most significant
Does not need to be a mother to express her strong nurturing instincts
Finds satisfaction as a caretaker or a provider
Excels in the helping professions of teaching, nursing, counseling
She claims her power by recognizing she does not always have to submit to
other’s decision

from the site: http://www.sophiadolls.com/index.html

Altar

I just recently set my altar up. It’s not perfect, and I will add and subtract as I go along.

Across the back row is (left to right) the representations of the elements: earth (a bamboo holder with my gems and stones in it), water (a blue paperweight with an ocean scene in it, a seashell necklace wrapped around the bottom, and various sea creature pendants in the necklace), air (a golden incense burner with bird pendants around the base) and fire (a dragon tea light holder).

Directly centered in front of the four elements is a card stand. I use it for tarot, spells, etc. Directly in front of Earth is a stick incense holder. Directly in front of Fire is a gray box with a faerie on the lid. Inside here I put offerings to God, wishes, etc.

My altar cloth is varying shades of blue that my friend got me from Turkey.